death how it affects us..

Death..
is it the end of life??or is it a new beginning ??
a question that has been plaguing the human brain ever since it became the most developed system on the earth.
the most clinical explanation of death is the state of body wen the body ceases to carry out normal functions but is it really only that?? how can u not define death as something that causes temporary loss of emotions(normal ones), temporary loss of brain functionality, temporary insanity and sometimes in extreme cases permanent insanity.. u might ask me now if i've become insane.. i would say no.. why is death always defined with respect to the one no longer there wat abt the ppl left behind isnt it better to define death in terms of these ppl who have carry on rather the ones who have already left us.. shudn't there be much more attention given to them (and pls pitying them is not altogether a very good option).. does one death cause another death??does it make these ppl loose the will to live.. sometimes yes.. sometimes these ppl get a new purpose in life (and i mean sometimes..) then shudnt death be defined also as a means for a person to find a new purpose a new vocation a new chance..
notice that i've been speaking of death as the end, the last stage ,the ultimatum of the person's life...
but wat if it is not wat if there exists a parallel world which has ppl living there with no recollection of their lives on this dimension isnt that a new beginning?? but since we can never be sure of wat exactly happens to anybody after they die, the confusion regarding death will continue long after we ourselves cease to exist.

every morning i get up and think, have i changed much from yesterday?
have i become more compassionate or more selfish
have i become somebody i would hate or somebody i would love
have i become stronger or weaker
the answer to which is yes i have changed
but exactly in what way have i changed??
i cannot seem to understand that

nobody knows you better than yourself; is this true?
then i donot know myself at all..
is that so bad??
would it not be better to surprise yourself with your own actions??
would it not make life much more interesting..?

sometimes i'm lost in this world and dont feel like i belong
does everybody feel that??
if yes, does that mean i am the same as everybody else??
and does that not mean that i belong perfectly??
and in accepting my belongingness(?)
have i lost my uniqueness??
was i unique??
and if i wasn't would i like to be??

man is a social being, we cannot live without company
yet we go about starting wars and killing each other..
isn't that going against our very basic need for other people's company??
then too why do we go along hurting others??
is it that we are so confused??
and donot know ourselves??

these are just few of the many questions that haunt me throughout the day and only disappear when i fall into a deep dreamless sleep..
i wonder, can i ever be rid of them ??


(PS dont freak out.. i'm not always plagued by depressing thoughts i'm a very happy person but sometimes when i'm in a unguarded state of mind these questions keep recurring in my mind..
i'm pretty sure others have had these thoughts too..)

in reply to SOMEONE'S blog.......

ok.. here i am.... again... hopefully this time I'll be more consistent in writing...

usually i start off by letting everyone know what is wrong with my life and how I am the perfect example of Murphy's law.. I'll try to refrain from making this about me.. if i fail, i'm sorry..

This beginning is dedicated to my friend (the above said SOMEONE).
SOMEONE has really strong opinions about every possible aspect of life.
Her feelings stay with you and make an impact even when you donot agree with her..
N in general her thoughts make for good reading and introspection..
so hope you enjoy reading n be ready for some really insightful writing..

here's to you Dhati..
cheers..
(champagne in my hand)

PS i know you hate drinking but couldn't help myself...